I am still working out this relationship thing with "P". Now that I have decided to work on me that means working on what god wants me to do. I think that I have heard him on this realtionship but I am not sure. maybe I heard him a long time ago, but it is whether  I want to acknowledge him or not and do what he wants me to do. that is a  different story. Has my feelings changed for him? yes. Do we see each other like we use to?no. Do we talk  to each other like we use to, no. In  fact we do not have anything to say to each other anymore. Do I think that he loves me? I am not sure. You could have asked me this awhile back and I would not have hesitated but now I am not to sure about anything. But do I love him? Yes ,Do I think that God placed him in my live for a reason. definately. Do I think that god is finished with me when it comes to bringing people to his kingdom. no. But i do think that there are other roads that he and I are meant to travel down and it may not be as my boyfriend but I think that I am prepared for what ever God has planed to come my way.

I started along time ago with making changes in my life and then I decided that I do not need new years to start doing the things that I need to do in my life right now.  You have people who have chosen to go on diets and people who have decided to get a new gob, but are these things really important.  It seems to me that the change they should be making in their lives should have to deal with you lord.  They should only want to make changes that will impact their after life.  why do we continue to worry about things that will not be there after we are gone.  Is it that some of us still have not let go of those wordily things that we hold dear. 

My niece and I were talking and she reminded me that the house had to be clean before the new year or it will be dirty all year long.  Or that you had to cook hopping johns to bring you wealth or luck.  Depending on where you are from, I am sure that most of us know all of these old traditions and superstitions that will result from not doing them.   I was reared in the south. There are so many I know. My grandmother, although she was a godly woman would live by them.  I use to often think that they were true until I remembered my pastor  saying that you should be weary of these things such as superstitions because we hear them so much we live by them when infact there could be evil linked to certain things.  For example My grandmother believed in root and although I grew up believing it. I do not now.  I do not believe that someone can cast evil over someone else to cause that much harm.  I realized that the further south you go, like where my boyfriend is from, the more the believe.  I have never seen this in the bible but we tend to believe what we hear.  These superstitions were meant to put fear into Gods people.  We have enough to worry about without giving ourselves unnessary fears. I try to warn some of my friends as the new year draws near to  just be cautious about what you do and why you do it.  we should always want to know the history around the things we do.  If we did look into the things we do than we would realize that most of them do not exist but int the minds of the people who make them up.